sheqyn's

am i making a big mistake..
am i choosing d' right path..
am i strong enough to take d' risk..
am i..? am i..? am i..?

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kak de's wedd is today.. but at kuantanla.. really want to go there but xda geng nk pi.. cannot go there by my own.. mom n dad won't let me, so i guess i've to follow them to mak ngah's house la ari ni.. best jugak.. bole main ngn anak sedara yg br nk msk sbulan tu.. hehhee..:P

ingtkan nk pi ngn julia.. but later find out her wedd' is on ths monday.. so mmg dia tokle joinla wedd kak de.. nk pi ngn farid, he said he's not invited to d' ceremony.. nk g ngn marina n hz, they are in kemaman.. who else..? dh xda dah.. haiya.. susahnya belajar jejauh... mmber pun dapat yg jejauh ngn gumah.. sorg ktn.. terengganu, melaka, n9, kedah.. waduh...

nk g wedd' julia.. kat n9 jer.. tp xtau la plak route to her house.. sbb rumah dia dlm sket.. card dia pun xsampai lagi.. cmna nk follow d' map.. masalah..masalah...

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on 31st may, kak yana's wedd plak.. yg ni kat perak.. insyaAllah can make it there sbb dh ada geng nk pi.. tumpang bapak.. hehehehhh... dh lama xjln2 ngn bapak.. dulu ms kat YTM slalu ada event kat lua so sempatla gak handle few events for scholar student @ YTM.. pi Marang.. Pi n9.. pi cameron.. pi marang ngn En Ihsan.. bapak pun was there.. n pi n9 with bapak n En Kassim.. best2.. dapat dok sensorg dlm satu gumah coz.. im d' only lady yg pi sner.. hehehhehe....

ms kat marang byk gak tpt kitorg lawat.. yerla.. we, YTM pple just nd to monitor.. there's another group will take care of d' event.. so, ms dorg tgh buat activity kelas tu, kitorg ape lg.. pi la merayau2.. pi kedai batik.. pi tpt buat kopok lekor losong, pi pantai, mlm2 pi mkn seafood.. pi minum gelas besar.. pi pasar payang.. hehehe siap beli telur penyu lg tu.. :P pastu pi pulau kapas... siap snorkeling ngn main kayak lg.. best2..:) ha.. kat marang ni bapak ngn en shaiful ada namakan 1 menara ni under my name sbb dorg kater menara tu ketot mcm aku.. huhu.. papepon, i got my own menara kan.. dr dorg xde.. hehehhhhh..:P:P

kat n9 plak.. ktorang handle camp utk scholar student ipta/s.. ni best gak.. naik bot.. g jln2 PD, g pasar pantai.. tangkap gamba ngn kuda.. main layang2.. pastu mlm ikut bapak pi skodeng student yg kner buat nite tracking in grp + war nite (ala yg jumpa jer group lain kiter kner attack dorg ngn colored thing yg campur ngn bahan ape ntah smpi bau dier busuk giller tu..) and me, m'tila selamat coz ikut bapak (gelap giler ms tu.. yerla dlm utan..), pastu morning after that dorg ni kner buat rakit n naik rakit tu smpai kat tepi pantai.. kelaka ms ni bila tgk dorg naik rakit tu.. ada yg rakit cm nak terbalikla.. pastu ada yg rakit tokle gerak la.. me and bapak..? kitorg naik boat.. hehehhe.. best2 pastu buat ombak besar kat dorg.. hahahaha.. jahat giller ms tu..:P:P

d' nxt day.. ada activity berenang ke tepian pantai.. ms ni saya dikenakan oleh bapak ngn en shaiful.. sungguh xpatut dorg ms ni.. adeker disuruhnyer aku msuk grp bebudak tu buat activity.. sungguh x patut.. 1st.. kitorg naik boat ramai2 in grp la ke suku laut kot.. ke tgh laut.. x ingtla.. tp conductor tu kater klu depan lg kitorg pg.. bole smpai sumatera kot.. yerla.. kitorg kan kat selat melaka.. pastu grp2 ni kner lumba sapa smpi dulu ke pantai.. but must swim in group.. waduh... ms tu mmg kaki xjejak la.. conductor tu kater, mmg dlm giller kat stu.. tepi pantai pun nmpak cm kecik jer.. bapak ngn en shaiful pun dh tokle nk cm dorg yg mner.. smuer cm titik2 jer.. jauh jer.. dlm hati mmg dh risau dh pk boleh ke sampi balik kat pantai tu.. nak berenang pun xreti.. sib baik ada life jacket n in group.. klu tak.. huhuhu.. xtau ape jd..

ms ni dlm group kitorg ada plak yg kejang otot.. adui.. masalah2.. dh la ramai yg xtau berenang.. main kayuh jerla kaki even xtaula kayuh tu btul ke tak caranyer.. janji gerak ke depan n bukan keblakang.. but yg tensionnyer kan.. dh kayuh byk2 ke depan.. tetiber arus tolak balik kitorg ni ke blakang.. ms tu mmg dh penat xterkata dh.. dengan takut tenggelamnyer.. lenguh kaki ngn tangan... leher lg.. org dok tarik2 baju lg.. waduh.. sampi pantai mmg nak knerla bapak ngn en shaiful ni nnti.. hahaha... mcm2 doa aku bacer ms ni.. hhehe.. siap mengucap lg.. hhahaha...:P:P but alhmdulillah kitorg manage to smpi gak ke pantai.. dr jauh dh nmpak dh bapak ngn en shaiful dok gelak2 sakan kat aku.. mmg jahat seh dorg nih.. sib baik dorg gula2 kan aku ptg tu nk pi berenang kat pool.. best2.. hehhehhh.. bestnyerr ms tu.. :):)

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its gud to memorize all the happiness things that happen to you..
but it also gud to capture all d' mistakes happened..
then.. you will always aware n won't fall into another same trap again..

"pengalaman kan mendewasakan dan mematangkan fikiran"

n me..? easy for me to forgive.. but hard to forget.. will still be frens but to trust.. not as before..